Yes - it's 2015 and I'm far too late for a "wow, look what I did in 2014 - here's what's coming in 2015" post. But in reality - what does it matter? Time is moving in a one-way linear fashion and life, well my life right now might as well be a snow-globe caught up in a washing machine. I find myself feeling very little in control and pushed one way or another by the demands of others. Not perhaps a fun way to live, but that's where thing are right now.
So I've gone on another tangent - in thinking about the real reason behind why I felt compelled to finally write again today - a quote. One of my dear friends from, who I've now known going on 8 years (yeah -- think about that for a hot second...) sent me this out of the blue last Sunday.
"If you want a happy ending, that depends, of course, on where you stop your story." - Orson WellesAnd it got me thinking - thinking a lot actually. I'm good at sharing when life is full of excitement, adventure and all things fun and happy, but what about when life gets dull, boring and sad? That's not a life worth writing about, that's not a life I want. We all have ups and downs and those times when if our story stopped, it wouldn't be a happy ending. It's easy to stop fighting for your dreams, your hopes, your happiness. It's easy to wallow in being sad, accepting the status quo and well, frankly it's easy to surrender. It's hard to fight. It's hard to take the risks, the scary leaps that may secure your happy ending, but if you don't take that leap - you won't even have a chance. And if you fall, well then you do what you do on the mountain bike, you pick yourself up, brush off the dirt, clip back in and pedal on.
I took a leap last year, and maybe didn't land exactly where I had hoped to. In fact I didn't. I feel like I've almost fallen flat on my face in a big pile of guano. But my story doesn't end here - not by far. I'm not ready to stop it, I can't stop it, so I'm going to brush off as much guano as I can, hold my chin up and get ready to take another leap towards that happy ending.